Although my fingers are a bit stiffer and thicker, there appears to be no muscle loss. Despite the process of landing and when I have enough energy, I can continue typing and blogging for a while.

My ever curious brain continues to participate as usual and can not resist regularly asking the question: what actually happens to me after my death? I’m the type that likes to prepare a little bit for new adventures. In addition, some readers now regularly ask me – understandably – questions about it, which I appreciate. I admit that I hadn’t thought much about it until now for the sake of convenience, so I still have some knowledge to catch up on. Moreover, as a designer and scientist, I know that finding good, reliable information is a great art and effort in itself. A surprising advantage of poor sleep and limited mobility is that I am finally taking the time to read a lot, including on this subject.

To my great joy, on the day of the diagnosis (January 10), in addition to receiving the disastrous news, I had also received a calmness and peace, which have remained with me ever since. Both help me see things in a clearer perspective, without being able to rationally explain it. I can sense things better (which in itself is quite a discovery for a technician like me) and apparently also select information sources better based on that feeling or even awareness. It feels like God (love) is helping me through this realization to better navigate this phase. I understand that I still have a lot to learn.

It gives me these first discoveries:

  • This earthly existence is an often difficult and very challenging, but also a wonderful opportunity to acquire important life lessons. Everyone has the free will to use them.
  • Condemnation, punishment and damnation are typically earthly, human-described (not Divine) concepts and do not exist beyond.
  • Our fears are often linked to our physical body and not to our soul, so apparently I don’t suffer from that anymore after death.
  • After death everyone is lovingly received, first by loved ones and then by good teachers and fellow students (these are my words to keep it practical) to critically evaluate the life lived, to make plans again for further learning and new adventures in any form whatsoever.
  • Fortunately, there also seem to be humor and beautiful music on the other side. I hope to come across descriptions of cats…
  • The ultimate learning goal (I call it the ‘final exam’) is agape, or living from unconditional love and in connection with everything and everyone. For me that is God’s love, which others call Tao or something else. I’m looking forward to learning that and I understand that I still have a (exciting) way to go in this. In my opinion, this love is also beautifully described in the Bible, in which the two main constitutions are mentioned “which are equal to each other” and “on which depend all the laws and the prophets”.
  • Fortunately, the strong realization that I immediately got that I remain connected with all those who are beloved by and dear to me, in short you, is also fully confirmed. That goes much further than a good memory.
  • By the time you ever make the transition, I expect, after what I have now read, to be in your loving reception committee. Together with others I’ll do my best to show you around. I would almost seem like I’m looking forward to make the transition myself if I describe it like that, but that statement absolutely does not do justice to reality: the fact that I often find it so nice and beautiful here and with you. However, it does make it clear to me that death is not something we have to fear.

In the absence of a bucket list (after all, I always immediately planned and did what seemed meaningful and fun) I have still been able to add bonus days to my already very rich earth life. That my life is rich is of course thanks to you and in that thanks to (the/God’s) love. That just got even clearer to me!